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Yesterday was a BAD day. You know how you have them. I was full to the brim of PMT and knackered from a booze fuelled weekend, so when I woke up yesterday with the puffiest face I've ever had (honestly, I looked like my wisdom teeth had been pulled out. Through my eyes or something) and an overall massive cloud of Bad Mood hanging over me I knew it was going to be A Really Shit Day.
And I was right.
Work was alright but I couldn't shift the feeling that I needed to have a bloody good cry. Which I did regularly. Over my desk, over the phone, over my friend. It was horrible. I just wanted to get home, change into my PJs and go to bed.
I cancelled dinner at my friends house and went straight home. Had a fight with Bandito (sigh) and then made up (sigh) and after he left for band practice I made 2 pots of soup and lay around on the sofa feeling sorry for myself.
The weather was crap, my attitude was crap and after craving some alone time in the house I realised I was really bored.
As I sat there I started to think about the thick feeling in my head. 'How can I shift this?' I thought to myself and then mentally clicked through all the things that I normally do to clear my head.
Go for a cycle..no, too rainy and dark and I'm in my pyjamas.
Phone a friend..no, I'd only end up moaning and crying and depressing the shit out of them too.
Eat loads of bad food..no, I'd just had a filling dinner and wasn't craving anything.
Drink loads of booze..no, after being on this massive 8 month bender (and the rest) it's time to get a healthy relationship with alcohol so I'm on a no booze week.
And then it struck me. The one thing I knew I could rely on to clear my head that involved nobody else but myself.
That's right - I took myself off to bed with my vibrator and had not one but two fantastic orgasms. I'm not joking - it completely and utterly sorted me out. My head became almost instantly clutter free, I had a smile on my face, a skip in my step and today....I feel like a new woman.
I can't believe how well it worked. I am overjoyed with how easy it was. And how enjoyable. To the point where I'm actually looking forward to my next down day...
10:46 am - 04 October 2006
