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the year of going crazy
Well, after a summer of seriously considering the thought that I’m going mad, getting manic depression AND suffering from a seriously late bout of teenage angst, it would appear that the good old me is fully back in force.
I had a wonderful weekend up in Ullapool with a fab bunch of friends, we drank, we took drugs, we danced, we saw great bands, we got busted by the police (ouch), we laughed and laughed (though admittedly not whilst being busted) and had an absolute blast. It was so good to just get out of work, have a bit of a blow out and just generally have some proper fun where Bandito and I weren’t at each other’s throats and half killing each other.
We camped on the Friday and Saturday nights and then on the Sunday we headed off to a nice wee inn for a chilled out night of luxury (well, more luxurious than a tent obviously) and calm. All very delish.
I am still looking back over my ‘demented phase’ and wondering where the hell it came from. I think it is primarily down to being quite bored. I was getting bored of everything (god I sound like Kevin the Teenager don’t I?!), of my job, my house, my husband, my body, my hair, my music, my friends, my drug and alcohol intake, my diet, my gym – I mean, I’m talking EVERYTHING here. And I didn’t respond well to it at all. But, then I read in one of the weekend magazines an article written by a man (admittedly, he was very smug and extremely annoying, but it’s intrigued me) who alluded to the fact that all women go MENTAL when they reach the age of 32 for one year and then they go back to normal….
How odd. I am nearly 32 (shhhh, whisper it) and I have always been an early bloomer so I am wondering if there’s anything at all in that. Can any of you remember going a bit doolally at that age?
It’s just a thought. Cos obviously it would be really nice to blame this horrendously un-nerving and worrying stage on anything and/or EVERYTHING other than you know, something really obvious that I’m personally doing wrong.
5:03 pm - 26 September 2006
